I am not going to talk about the funny side of me, so I apologize to any of you who grabbed your coffee and pulled up a chair to get a few laughs. No, today I am going to talk about keeping my brain focused and the great pains that I have to go through to do so. I used to think that my welbutrin helped, but lately, I don't think that is the case. I used to think it helped with weight loss too, but lately, that is not the case either. So, I am stuck with trying to give myself the brain power needed for....... oh, how I hate this word..... production.
Yes, that word makes my head dizzy. I have had to accept it to a certain degree if I hope to retire one day and make beads and jewelry for the next 1/3 or my life after that happens. I would like to say next half, but if I retire 5 years from now (hopefully, three, if I win on one of my cash word scratch off tickets), if will make me 58, so I am quite certain that I will not make it to 116. And, if I do my dear friends, do not let anyone put my smiling face on the Smuckers jar on Saturday mornings with Willard Scott. I try not to worry too much about that since I have spoken with my family and friends, and I am pretty sure Willard will not be around either.
I don't think I have to go into any more detail about my brain bouncing, since I am sure yours is right now after reading the first three paragraphs!
I am, now, officially in a very nice gallery called Gallery 54 in Skaneateles, NY. I am in there as a consignment artist. I was flattered that I was invited. What I have learned, however, is that I need to pick up the pace. I am changing my way of thinking when making beads. I am trying to think "design" rather than fun beads that I sell to others, so that they can come up with their own designs.
I'm done talking..... time for pictures. Instead of trying to organize this, I will just show you what I have been doing. What I won't show you is what my kitchen table looks like, despite the fact that I have a studio. lol!
Wait! One more thing! I also tend to be a bit obsessive about certain things, but I am working on that and will not be changing the the sideways pictures that would normally drive me nuts! I call that "progress!" So, there, I said it.... I will accept that there are pictures that are sideways and I will not let it bother me. And, if there are not even spaces between each of the pictures, I am going to be okay with that too. Once, I hit "publish" I will not go back and obsess. Am I exposing too much at once?
|patinas from Shannon LeVart of missficklemedia|
And, I will conclude with that I know I cannot change the way my brain works. It is what it is. I learned many, many moons ago that you just have to be true to who you are. This gallery work is a learning experience for me and I know that like anything in life that you practice, you will get better. I am still trying to find out who I am when it comes to being an artist. I think it is the brain bouncing thing I've got going on.
The one thing that I do know is that I am who I am and I cannot design like the others that I admire so much. I think what I admire in some of my favorite artists is that their work shows me who they are.
Thanks for reading. I feel better now after getting some things off of my chest! Off to the medicine cabinet!
I am consistent with this closing if nothing else....
Thank-you for supporting artists who create handmade with handmade.
I will now hit "publish" and not turn back......
That will be easier said than done.....