There is a certain perception I have of someone who is in charge.... just like the cop that goes flying by you with lights flashing. The second I see that car coming from behind, I'm like, "Oh, no! How fast was I going, Is my car inspected, on and on? Did I do something wrong?" The list goes on.........an on.....
While writing this therapeutic post ;o), I'm guessing it is because authority figures have the "ok" to critique what I am doing. That's the part that I do not like.
I've been working on how to deal with the critiquing of my work and how I react to that. Maybe if that bead were a little smaller, a little darker, over on this side instead of that side, it would look better. On the outside, I am absolutely positive that I look like I can handle it well. What the critic does not see is me taking apart an entire piece because I am now looking at it completely different. It usually never ends up even close to where I started.
On the other hand, however, I have made a HUGE leap in terms of what I was going to do about the head of white hairs that have been at war with Miss Clairol for about 15 plus years. Prior to that, I was winning the fight with more color than white. I've been threatening my color treatment bottles every three weeks that they were going to the dump and I was going to throw in the white flag! Yes, the VERY white flag!
Exposing myself to the world....
Now, I don't know how many of you out there have ever considered the color "gray" as part of your every day appearance, but when I did, I knew that I was not turning back no matter how many critics I had. Believe me, I had a few..... all women! Honestly, any males that I have contact with never said anything one way or another. That's playing it safe. Those with the strongest opinions were "friends."
I had my mind made up that I was doing this for me and was prepared to face whatever was going to come. 26 years of teaching middle school students has definitely hardened my shell in terms of taking personal insults!!
The next phase was to get it all cut off. I knew this was going to be a long road this school year. My wonderful hairdresser foiled it, stripped the remaining color and gave me a pretty fancy haircut. I love this and many thought I should continue to add this color to it, but my plan is to be color free so that is not an option....... Besides, I'm not sure this could be replicated since it is the brown stripped out. I'm going the hassle free route.
Here it is now.... looking a little wild (which my original hair pre-color was) and schools are not known for the best lighting...., but other than getting regular cuts, I'm good to go.
Now, what the heck does this have to do with those critics who feel compelled to pick apart a piece that I make? Well, I'm working on feeling "that way" I did when I knew I would face the "hair critics" as opposed to the red lights that come up behind me only to pass on by. Create for you. It always works out best.
What attitude do you take with your critics?